Wow. 2015. Every year, as we step one step up into a higher and higher number, I am amazed by the passage of time. I’ve always been fascinated by time as a concept, but of course the typical busyness of life usually overshadows my thoughts so that I cannot dwell on these things.
But here we are again at the beginning of a new year and in the transition from one year to the next my thoughts have found room to reflect.
I’ve talked about this several times in posts over the past few months, and it’s a fitting time to bring this up again now. Life is filled with good times and bad, and our little family had gone through some difficult times the past couple years. But life is often cyclical and we’ve hung though this most recent round of bad times…and I believe that we’re moving into a different – and better – stage of life. I’m very excited to see what 2015 brings.
But first, reflection. We would not be at the place we are now – and we cannot get to the place we are going – if it weren’t for the place we once were.
Following in the footsteps of my previous “Hindsight” posts, #1, #2, and #3, this post is Hindsight #4: 2013 vs. 2014 vs. 2015.
We began 2013 a few months out from The Phone Call That Started It All. We were a bit trepidacious, yet still optimistic, as we approached the new year. Things were in talks with KP’s previous job, options for recourse were being explored, new investments being sought, and we thought it was only a matter of time until things sorted themselves out and KP would begin working again.
But as the early months of 2013 passed, and various other circumstances happened, it became clear that that was not going to happen. KP was officially out of a day job.
He still had his writing though, and he had several promising projects out, and was being submitted to work on several shows. He kept busy, and we kept up our hope. Oh yes, we kept up our hope. Hope has an amazing way of getting you through the tough times.
It’s a strange place to be, living your life knowing that, at any moment, you could get THAT phone call. The one that could change our lives. The one that could mean our income would be multiplied several times over. Our life was lived constantly on edge, waiting to see how things would play out and where our life would end up. On one hand, it was thrilling to never know what tomorrow would bring. On the other hand, the longer it wore on, the more we were left exhausted and emotionally drained.
This is not the post to elaborate on finances, but suffice it to say, things were not easy in 2013. If anything, since I was forced to completely change my outlook on money, I’m thankful that the struggle allowed me to gain money management skills that will hopefully stay with me for life.
I’ve already discussed how difficult times can affect marriage relationships in my Hindsight #2 post, so I’m also not going to elaborate on that here, but just know that 2013 was a struggle in that way too.
In the early summer, I somewhat unexpectedly (considering it had taken us a couple years for C) found out I was pregnant, which threw a wrench into everything. Then, a little over a week later, just as we were embracing this new development, I miscarried. Then, 2 months later, I found out I was pregnant again.
The best way I can say it, without indulging in unnecessary , is that 2013 was a tumultuous year. A very tumultuous year that I hope we’ll never need to endure again. Though if we do, I at least have the confidence that since we’ve survived that storm once, that we now have the strength and ability to do it again if we ever have to.
I wholeheartedly welcomed 2014 and any change it would bring. Whether good change or bad change, at least it’d be a change. KP and I were on the same team no matter what and were determined to face whatever the year brought. Together. We’d have to. We didn’t have any other choice.
As I wrote in my very first post on this blog on Valentine’s Day 2014,
With the birth of our second child approaching, we just cannot afford to keep up this dream much longer. One way or another, changes are in store for us in the very near future. Big changes. They HAVE to be. It’s the only way we’ll survive. Either we’re throwing in the towel, or we’re gonna strike it big.
So I’m starting this blog now, while the future is still uncertain, yet certainly looming.
As always, I hope for the best, but brace for the worst.
As a teacher who didn’t get paid over the summer, with birth of our son arriving late April, and with one last project of KP’s out there, we knew we had until summer break to make a decision on whether to stay or go.
So in early 2014 we braced for our future. We looked forward first to a new baby and then, to whatever come what may.
And come what may is exactly what happened.
April 24, 2014: Baby S was born.
Late-May 2014: A good friend of KP’s (whom I now consider like an angel to us) hired KP on what was originally supposed to be a temporary, two-week, copywriter position at a movie trailer house. This position ended up keeping up for the remainder of the year and into the next. May 28, 2014: I thought up an idea for an invention.
June 18, 2014: KP got some rejection news that, had he not had the then-temporary job mentioned above, would’ve been the calling-it-quits point.
July 8, 2014: I filed a provisional patent application on my invention.
July 22, 2014: I took a leap of faith on a new job opportunity.
July 27, 2014: I found out that this guy that I went to college with was on the national news and had caught ebola while treating patients there. Yes, I’ll admit that had I not previously known Kent, that I may not have been affected by the story as I was…but I did and I was. It made me count my blessings and realize that even through the hard times of 2013, that I’d still had a lot, A LOT, to be thankful for. It also challenged me, I suppose you could say, to stop living my life as though in waiting for whatever next big thing I thought might be out there – and to start doing what I could now. I firmly believe that we are all in different places in life and are meant to do different things; I may not have been “called” to fight ebola, but I bet I have my own “calling” and place where I’m meant to contribute instead.
August 27, 2014: My daughter got into a two-day-a-week preschool at the very last minute, which has been an incredible experience for her and much-needed mental break for me to focus on work.
October 2, 2014: I lost my ‘Leap of Faith’ job.
October 8, 2014: I began a new, even better, position for me.
The last couple months of 2014 were spent peacefully and have allowed KP and I to catch our breaths and regroup as we enter into whatever direction 2015 is going to take us.
It’s only 2 days into 2015 so far, but for some strange reason, I am excited for this year. I am optimistic for this year. I feel like something is happening this year.
On New Years Eve 2014, KP and I ordered Chinese takeout. This was my fortune.
I’m sticking by this.
And I’m looking forward to seeing what knowledge I will acquire and what I will accomplish in 2015.
Thanks for reading and being part of this blog and our story. Stick around. Something may hopefully be happening soon.
Or not. And if not, then we’re ok with that too. Either way, we’re in a better place and I’m happy to be here and can’t wait to see where 2015 takes us.