Here’s the funny thing about having a blog. In real life, I’m very open to talking about almost anything, even things that most people don’t want to talk about. 🙂 I believe that – for those who want to find it – that honest questioning eventually leads to truth and I’m not afraid to challenge beliefs and take unpopular stances. Hey, after all, I am a math teacher and a bit analytical, so I find beauty in logic and a purpose in natural law.
And I very highly value honesty in all things.
But the funny thing with having a blog where I occasionally dabble in discussions about Hollywood is that there are sometimes things that I can’t say. I love how this article written by Todd Farmer, a Hollywood screenwriter who became homeless, describes it:
“We just don’t talk about it. We can’t. One, to speak out runs the risk of being branded difficult. We don’t want that. And two, Hollywood likes to hire success. Therefore it’s important we appear more successful than we are. You may not be aware of this but Hollywood promotes lying. Pretending we are more successful than we are. Younger than we are. Smarter than we are. In this department, actors really have it bad but it’s an industry wide challenge.”
This is something I struggle with big time in this blog. If confidence is only a step away from success, and Hollywood values success, then why can’t I be confident about the setbacks on our/KP’s path to eventual success? Why must truth be hidden? Isn’t it a major theme in Hollywood to root for the underdog? So why should I be shy about being the underdog? 🙂
Hollywood is FULL of stories of tv shows and films being passed over by network after network and studio after studio before finding the right fit, going on to be a huge hit, and making millions and millions of dollars. This is Hollywood’s ‘Hollywood Ending’ and it happens all the time.
It was a beautiful day. We were in good spirits, relaxed after a refreshing weekend, well-rehearsed and confident. Back on the lot where we’d both separately, before knowing each other, started our Hollywood adventure all those years ago. Getting coffee in the guest shop while a tv on the wall showed CNN’s coverage of the Pope arriving in the States. KP running into a colleague he’d previously worked with on the very last thing he’d pitched to a network…and that they had sold. Good omens everywhere.
Sign, signs, everywhere a sign.
We presented our pitch with calmness and enthusiasm. Everything felt right. Clear. As it should be. Looking back, I’m nothing but proud. We did exactly as we should have.
And then we left. And waited.
And now we take it to the next place.
We always keep going. KP’s got interesting things brewing elsewhere and something is always happening. We survive.
It’s funny. When I started this blog a year and half ago, we were in a very difficult place. We were so close to giving up, packing up, and moving away from this entertainment business world altogether; we just couldn’t afford to keep going. In that post, I talked about the self-delusion of never-ending hope and how ours was running out. But something’s changed from that point until now. Maybe I’ve finally given in. Not given up – but given in – to the “self-delusion” of never-ending hope. Hmm, the self-delusion of never-ending hope. I suppose you you call that faith. After all, if we don’t have something to keep us going, then what do we have?
I have hope of what’s to come. Faith that all the right things will work out as they are supposed to and that what is meant to happen will.
First wave down. We’re still standing strong. Ready for what’s next.